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| well, they can only be done in the presence of a boring teacher, so I had another epiphany while in Kilnam's class. I had actually been thinking a little bit about this for a while, but it hit me full on while spacing out during lecture... My future does not include cascade college. Not anymore. I used to want to find a way to stay here, but no longer. The only connection that I have with the school is through the people. I have no desire to stay for any of the classes, and they don't have a major that I like, so what's the point of staying at an expensive school when they don't even have what I want. I figure, I should just go to a school closer to home, and that is cheaper. More like the JC, Delta. I know a few people that go there, so I won't be completely alone. And now I'll be able to get a more lasting job over the summer, be closer to my family, and spend less on a more fulfilling education. Not that cascade isn't fulfilling, they just don't have what I need. This is hard for me, because I love the people here so much. When I came up here originally, I was having a really hard time with my past, but everyone here was just so wonderful that everything wrong just seemed to fade. I became happy again, and knew that there were people out there who loved me. I have many close friends up here, and I really don't want to leave them. They're amazing. But, I find it necessary to leave this place and start up again somewhere else. So many plans will be broken, and I hope that they forgive me for that. | | |
| alright, I've had an epiphany! And I must admit, it is quite awesome. So, I wanted to do the whole music industry career thing, yet I wanted to stay at cascade, right? Well, I found a way to do both! I was spacing out in Dr. Williamson's class (which I do quite often), and I was wondering what to do about the whole situation. So I started thinking of all the different abundance of majors we have, and my mind came across...Business. Then it hit me. Business? Music!? I'll open a music store! It's brilliant! I'm already thinking of what it'll be like inside. This music store will sell everything remotely related to music. Cds, tapes, instruments, sheet music, dvds, memorabilia, etc. It'll be amazing. And the best part...in the back of the store there will be an open area on the floor and...a stage! Yeah, I'm going to put a stage in there so that all the local bands can come and jam whenever they want. Amazing, I know. Ah, the things you learn in Dr. Williamson's class... That's about it. Cheers! | | |
| Ok, Jason was totally complaining that I haven't written in a while, so here it is, a new blog entry. I don't really have much to report, except that I have decided not to return to Cascade. Sad but true. I love it up here and everything, but it just doesn't have the major that I need. I wanted to be a high school history teacher (which I couldn't do here anyway), but I realized that is not what I truly want to be. I have always wanted to do something in the music industry, but it just wasn't a realistic goal. No matter how many times I've changed what I should do in the future, music has always been in the back of my mind. I love music, and it is the only thing I see myself involved in. I don't know what I would do with it, but there must be something I can do. I was thinking I could work at a recording studio, or a record label. Heck, I'd even be a roadie if I could. Anything. I asked some people how I could get into the music industry, and they just told me to be a janitor. Thanks, but no thanks. I could see myself as a talent agent. Going out in different towns and find a small local band to sign. Or a music editor, or mixer, or...something. I don't know. I just would really like to work with music, but I don't even know where to start. If only I could be pushed in the right direction, everything would work out. But, all I can do at the moment is pray. Pray for wisdom, and a helping hand. | | |
| You ever have those days were you feel like you're alone in the world? That no one notices you? That's how I felt. I've been around people all day, but still I somehow felt alone. I fake the smile, and go one like nothing is wrong. There's no explanation why I feel like this, but its been happening a lot lately. I feel like something is missing, and I have no idea what it is. It might be the fact that I'm losing contact with everybody at home, or that I don't have many close friends (except Rebecca) that I can talk to everyday and tell everything to. I miss the closeness I suppose. I don't know, I can't really explain it. | | |
| So basically, I just want to post my thoughts and experiences so that I may share them with the people in life that mean a lot to me. I have decided that here and now I am going to start anew, and "live a life worthy of the calling I have recieved". I have realized how ignorant I have been in my life thus far. It is through a specific friend that in reality, I know nothing. So, now I start my journey.
"In reply Jesus declared, 'I tell you the truth, no one can see the kingdom of God unless he is born again'." John 3:3 | | |
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